Friday, December 26, 2014

“How’s your heart’s condition?”


Assalamualaikum w.b.t

“How’s your heart’s condition?” That super-duper caring, sweet, tall, dark, handsome, annoyingly-mean-at-times and unfortunately my bestfriend a.k.a soulmate-tak-berapa-nak-soulmate-sangat asked. (PS: hari ni 1st anniversary beliau with bae nye, Cik Eira. Congrats ~ ^_^ )

Well, on scale 1-10 with 10 being I’m the happiest, all day cheerful, living as if I’m in cloud nine and 1 as the worst, I’m in most dreadful condition and slowly dying inside. 

Hurm, I would say, now I am on the scale of 5 trying to climb up to 6. I’m still in my healing and recovering process. I am not as dreadful or horrible as I remember I was two months ago (which was on scale 1&2) but I am still quite vulnerable alone. It still stings a little when I hear his name, or when songs we used to sing suddenly being played on the radio. 

Being around people I love, doing things that I love (reading, watching dramas, watching tv, play in the rain, running around chasing my little kittens, picking up fights with my siblings and cuddling with them and etc ) and eating delicious food I love helped me a lot in the healing process.

I’m holding on and powering up myself. ( POWER UP ~~) hahaha. Anyway, I’m fine. Terrifically fine for a person with a terribly broken heart.

Ps: Baru dua bulan ni, rilek la. Its still too early and even within this two months, I managed to stop all those terrible midnight tears and unnecessary sudden tears while walking or eating. I’m healing. No worries. I’ll be fine. In fact, I am feeling fine now. Much better than I used to. ^_^